Yesterday,
I made the capital mistake of senior year: Out of curiosity (and to see how
long I can procrastinate on certain assignments) I looked ahead in my planner
and counted how many weeks of school I have left before graduation. Umm…yeah,
bad idea. All of a sudden, a rush of mixed emotions flooded my mind and heart.
Excitement at graduating college, thrill at the end of homework, joyful
anticipation of the Next Big Step (who knows where God will take us? We sure
don’t!) sorrow at leaving all of the amazing people I have spent four years
with, sadness at the dwindling number of commitments with my household. You
know the famous, melodramatic exit of the 10th Doctor? Last night, I
totally started going into that mode.
BUT,
I quickly tried to snap out of it. Realizing just how miniscule my time as a
student is fueled me with a greater passion to live this life abundantly. I
want to make each moment count; I want to live each day in a more epic way. Thinking
about the coming end to my college career also reminded me about the importance of living in the present
moment. Yes, I could go around campus super sad, continually thinking, “Oh,
this is the fifth to last Rosary with my household sisters,” “Dear me, this is
the fourth to last Wednesday morning in the hallway with my friends,” and other
such thoughts. Again, think the exit of the 10th Doctor. If I did
this, I would be totally living in the future, and not focusing on the current
day that God is giving me. I choose to live now.
God gives us each moment as a gift, and it is in the present moment that God
wants me to follow my vocation as a wife and student. It is by living in the
present moment that I can grow in faith, hope, trust, and joy.
Several
years ago, when I was in high school, I worked at a pizza restaurant as the
“register girl.” I loved my job, and saw it as a ministry that I got paid for.
I loved speaking with all of the guests who came in. There were many people who
came in regularly. One of these people was a tall man, who was probably in his
late forties. Though I—embarrassingly—could never remember his name, he always
remembered my name and asked me how I was doing. We would make small talk each
time he came in, but one day, he hit me with something deep. As I rang up his
order, he asked me: “AnneMarie, how are you always so joyful all the time?” I answered by explaining how I tried to live
in the present moment, accepting whatever God sent me as a gift. In this, God
brought me joy, because I tried to not live in past regrets or future worries.
After I explained these things, the man nodded, thanked me, and moved along to
acquire food from the buffet.
“For he says: “In an acceptable time I heard you, and on the day of
salvation I helped you.” Behold, now is a very acceptable time; behold, now is
the day of salvation.”
~2
Corinthians 6:2
God
gives us today. He wants us to love in the present moment, to
entrust our lives to Him totally. Let us
live now.
"We are to leave the past to divine mercy and to trust
the future, whatever its trials, to God’s loving providence. Each minute of
life has its peculiar duty — regardless of the appearance that minute may take.
The Now-moment is the moment of salvation. Each complaint against it is a
defeat; each act of resignation to it is a victory." ~Archbishop Fulton Sheen, From the Angel's Blackboard.
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